从那些信和留言中，我发现到原来我也曾经觉得基督徒非常非常热情(我还没真正信主的时候〕...一开始也有人说完全看不出，也完全不知道我是个基督徒...直到现在，欣慰一点的是，如今当我说我是个基督徒时，有人会说“看得出”...但是应该还不够吧...也有人以为我是born to be christian...hmm...也不是...我怎么变成一个基督徒嘛...迟点应该会打上来...不懂做么，想打很久了...
Written on Monday, December 17, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
one of my favourit english hymn from Hillsong,australia.touching n nice.Hope u like it.Can u feel the presence of God? (Emmanuel means God is be with us,神与我们同在)
Written on Monday, December 17, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
最近，老是进不到friendster,什么都看不到，只看到最后一行“about us,contact us help...."的那行...问了好几位朋友，原来只有我有这样的问题，纳闷！因此，我不会在那里放日志了。不过，即使没有这个问题，我也不会在那里post了，因为它跟我心里向往的网志标准还有一段距离。 可是，极度惋惜的是如果再不能把问题解决我可失去了与旧朋友相聚，彼此了解近况的平台了><
我还以为有什么事。后来，他以英文问我"u hv ur dinner here?"后来又问我是不是刚放工etc...然后又问我名字，又介绍自己酱...我还记得他讲他叫michael酱...我开始觉得有点不对劲...果然，他接下去就问我"do u wan to hv a drink for a futher talk?"WALAO!杀到来了，我自然说NO！It's late,I hv to back now~他只好自讨没趣说“ya,it's late"之类的话。临走前，还好象很友好酱伸出手说”nice to meet u".我也只好跟他握个手...
或许，我对他存有戒心了，我觉得他握得很紧，让我觉得有点不舒服，于是本能的甩开他的手，然后冲出mcD搭车。在车上，我有种如释重负的感觉，直呼感谢神的保守。其实，我不确定他的用意何在，也不确定他是否的确怀有不愧之心。然而，他提出的"do u wan to hv a drink for a futher talk?"的确令人怀疑他别有居心。我和你素未谋面，况且我刚吃饱，怎会跟你去呢？真的越想越不对劲！开始觉得...哎呀，干嘛那么傻，告诉他真名，学校...还好没有给电话，地址...回家的车程当中，忽然想起那区经常有抢劫之类的...所以全程除了惊慌之玉，就是不断感谢上帝的保守，使我不至落入恶人的圈套和手里。而且幸好当时我们面前有两个外国人用餐，若他真的有非分之想，量他也不敢任意妄为。
然而，如今想起来，或许是也不足为奇，其实去年我也尝试再询问过校方，校方只允许我回去拿我本身没有把握的统考，在这种下下策，我自然选择不回去了。当然，当时的情况自然免不了祷告的啦～后来年尾再去，校方竟然让我回去读upper six。这也算神迹，我想，我是史无前例，唯一那么荒唐，有这种个案的学生。就如先前所提，我身在独中，一个无时无刻挖起我伤口的地方...或许，有个功课要我认真去学？要我学习放下，不再往后看？要我或许那是我最好的疗伤药？I've no idea...这些也纯粹是我的猜测～或许若干年后，我就知道到底这件事情的发生究竟是怎么回事，目的，旨意是什么了。
这是"天使的烙印"播完时我留在friendster的comment: FALLEN ANGEL ends at last~I'll miss it very very much. a good msia chinese drama.this will b another new point for the chinese drama.Hope that it'll continue n as hot as in 90's
POOR XUE WEN,i thought he'll b happy with yongyi,n may b saved by the doctor.HIS DEATH really SHOCKED me.so sad,yet he fell from so high,the chances to live not much...Miss...a character i luv in this drama.POOR yongyi,gain back the relationship btw family "zhang"~but start to lose every close ppl in her life within 2 1/2year(if u counted it).POOR KAI QING n KAI YUAN,the adventure of their life:sad childhood n being betrayed by the others brings a great change in em.em...ZIYANG can b said is the most luckiest among the 4~
Bravo to the crew.yet,in the finale,where the most excited part:kaiqing n yongyi were in the fire was mentioned more clearly bout how they were rescued.IT WILL B MORE EXCITED.
WAITING THE NEW DRAMA FROM THE 4MAIN CHARACTER:shawn yu,wayne chua,tiffany n zzen
Written on Sunday, October 14, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
今天，距离“生死之战”只有区区30＋天。我能不能顺利过关呢？现在的我心情真的很糟...4 subjects fail 3,if u were me...wat will u do?wat will u think?今天，有人因为粗心的缘故丢失了分数，眼泪下来了...有点羡慕，有得哭...别人是粗心的缘故，换句话说，只有细心点，放松点，问题就不大了。我？是懒惰和不会做的结合体，区区30多天，即使成仙，有速成班也存有问题...或许有人会说：“哎呀。多多少少在班上听的你多少都有印象”，“你行的啦，没有问题的啦”。这些话，老实说我也溺了，抱歉太直了。自己的是自己知道，
Written on Saturday, September 01, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
wow~i've not posted anything here for quite a long time o...yet i would like to share the xperience during my church camp in Genting View Resort on my past holiday...I really learn a lot,thx God for that...I really experience much...I'll try to post it up here asap...coz I wanna to share of of it wif my frens.I'll try to post what I've learn up here...So do hope,it will help lots of ppl too...Give the glory to our beloved God~
Written on Monday, August 06, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
now I've decided...I better keep my old principe,that's juz on9 once a week.I realised it really a waste of time for me to on9 omos everyday...furthermore,not really many ppl that i can chat with.so better not to do so for my own good,esp during this very important moment.I should have starting prepare my STPM since long time ago.Even now,it is consider as late...no matter how it is,it's better to start late than not doing anything at all though i dun really hv confidence with the outcome.nevermind,at least i give myself a try,set myself sum rules.
next time,if u saw me on9 again(except weekend la)~keep on alert me until i offline....haha~if u really saw this post la.....
Written on Monday, July 23, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
today,while browsing Internet with my friend in auditorium....we found a被抓之歌 posted by the composer of "muar chinese","kawanku" and the recent hot one "negarakuku".He might b sue becoz of the "negarakuku" saying that he doeznt respect the nation song and wrote sumthing which is "not true" bout our country... he wrote "被抓之歌“to express his feelings...though he's really kasihan,yet....still dunno y feel a bit funny....however,hope that he'll b fine la...
说起来，还有点惭愧，拖了那么多个礼拜，结果，还是没有真正准备好...突然想到，自己的attitute有点不对....I take it for guareented...这篇嘛，我自问没有真正认真的好好准备...小组圣经节，往往都是last minute 才背...虽然考出来效果还好，可是...就是有点...
现在的初中生，上了高中还得了？他们的仪容也让我们不敢恭维...男声裤子特地拉低，以为自己在穿低腰裤..... >there's one year,训导处hv to prepare sum socks...i think is last year...whenever there's sumone whose socks is too short(they make it purposely) n being caught....they r forced to buy it...usually we will see one row of students from junior middle is forced to buy n change the socks on the spot(in the discipline masters' room)....sumtimes the ppl even hv to q out of the door....it is too crowded...难为训导天天嗅咸鱼味... 也跟舒华谈起一些事情，由于他曾经住过宿舍，见的，听的自然较多。原来他们（除了先修联2，我们）很多的性观念都....或许以前的我们有这些案件，只是神经线过粗的我们不知道...先前还以为某位老师开玩笑...据说，有两个留级初一（不知几时的，或许现在的她们是高中年龄了）的女生...竟然以性经验夸口....
言谈中还发现到...父母，如果可以的话，不管多忙碌都好，尽可能，别把孩子留给别人照顾。不要说为了生活，一星期只见孩子一次....虽说是逼不得已，可是能免则面。因为据说，孩子的心灵会因而受创。有现身的例子...这是他在宿舍见到，听到，看到嘚.... to ming: pls refer to my comment on 20070709.tq^^
Written on Sunday, June 24, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
结果，他们一家还是没有出现~原来，他们前一天已经拨电给uncle sai wong,叫他不用去在他们了。或许，这次他们真的遇到某些事情了。或许，不是孩子的事情那么简单，否则，他的那位孩子怎么还出现在教会，而他们却...更甚的是，他们连家里的电话都割了。怎办呢？不想酱多啦。希望这件事能尽快解决。如果有误会的话，也希望能早日和好。上帝啊~你在掌权~求你看守，保守~赐领袖们聪明，智慧，晓得如何处理。
today...a bit ashamed la....I din well prepared for the cell group....I also totally forget about the bible verse tests...though at last,our cell group has to b cancelled...yet...it is still sth not good....for I din 做好我的事。I think not only this but even my studies....well....i should repent for it...
my bro came to church today...mayb it's God's work....who noes?My father does encourage him to join us becoz of sum reasons....He wants him to mix around with ppl...since my bro is too quiet,until it is a bit worrying....well....mayb....it's a work of God...That's wat I feel....He has his plan,His time.and I believe....everything is good!Ps Meng asked my bro to join C101...well...i do hope my bro can understand fully n open his heart to God....I hope that he'l realise that there isnt much time left...hope that he'l not WAIT N WAIT again...but i believe that everything is in His hand...I'll wait for the miracle^^
haiz...recently is a bit tired....lazy....pc oso lag...my pc lagi teruk.....program got problem again....GERAM!!!!@#$$#@!@#it waste me a lot of time to wait for the pc to work well~therefore i've to skip sum of my blog first...mayb I'll try to type in those precious experience later....haiz....poor!
Writing part(compo+summary)真的有点点…简单，可以用两个字表达--做不完！哎！伤心！我的summary，真的很难找point，不是讲笑！那些POINT看来看去都好像差不多一样，很难取舍！结果，时间不知不觉到了！字数，我知道有超过了！超多少也不知道！来不及算！只能在最后死命删字！真的不知怎办！compo,the title is about “do u agree to give firearms training to NS trainee?” 我真的想了很久，赞成还是反对？反对似乎蛮多东西可以写，可是最后却写了赞成！我没时间理语法了，就这样一直写，一直写,elaborate也不多~其实，写完后，我真的不知自己写了什么，觉得并不好，却没有时间修改，理会了！因为还有篇难搞的summary.paper2啊~wat score can I get from u?
Written on Thursday, April 26, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
it is my tuition day today^^.luckily,i made it to the end.i should be proud of myself haha~today PA class is extremely crowded.actually,it is a replacement class for us,the saturday class student due to the MuET test.but,who cares,since today is the public holiday for all sch...besides saturday student,friday class or even thursday class student came for the class.the class starts on 12.30pm,however,i cannot even find a seat when i reached bout 11.44am.Luckily,my fren had arrived earlier than us,only then,we got the place.according to him,he said he arrived b4 the tuition centre open,but the ppl who is queing up are many...huh....
MUET is only bout 33hours from now,however,i really dunno wat can i do n wat shall i prepare for it.i tried to do sum comprehention question...i was addicted by the surrounding...TV,PC...i cant really sit down and concentrate with my work.MUET....i keep on glazing at it...try to do...erm...well,i juz can say that,it's too much,it's a miracle n i wont think i'm able to finish em.sum of the students try to look for the hot topic n the tips for the essay.hmmm....however,do u think it really works?personally,i dun think so la....there r millions of questions possible to cum out....how to spot?eventhough u r lucky to do so....can we sure that we r capable to express it in a correct way?hmmm....general knowledge is a long time work...it has to be accumulated day by day....and we....are really lack of it...at least i'm one of em,as wat our teacher said,we r juz scratching the sand...i knew my problem,but it is not a short term work...
I dun really hv confident in MuET right now...as I hv not really put my effort in it.Furthermore,I found that my standard of english is sliding....I am sumone who seldom read n seldom write...wat i hv done so far is juz keep on posting blog...but,wat i hv typed was not proper eng....grammatical errors can be found easily....sumtimes really feel a bit ashamed of myself to post blogs in eng...if it is not more convinient to type in eng sumtimes,i think i will never ever post it in eng....wahaha
i had a dream to get band5 for it....but my effort is not enough...I'm not really serious for it...this I know....therefore,i dun really hv confident for it...the same situation for my other subjects...hmmm...I shall balanced my life n my emotion asap...for without our knowing,time swifted fast....unknowingly,it is MAY ady....
MUET,a subject that i had not really put my effort on....somehow,i still hope to get a good results...
now,23.45...i feel to give up...however,my frens still insist to struggle for the last time....shall I follow their steps and continue my battle till the end?or juz...simply giv myself a break...without doing anything?should i continue or juz stop all the effort right now?
Written on Thursday, April 26, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
~HAPPY BIRTHDAY SKY.miss u so much~hv u change ur hp number?i wonder why my msg cant be sent to u.if so,pls leave me your contact.anyway...keep on ur smile and laugh and all the best in ur life~ it's a tiring day...MUET is around the corner,or i should say that it is only 2days left for it...and we r considered as burning midnight oil these days...looking for compo topics...although we know that it doesnt really work much...language is not a "one day job",a castle cant b built in one day...however,we hv no other choices... so tired these days,esp for my eyes...i cant believe that yesterday,i slept from7sth at the evening to bout 12am at the midnight,yet i still can sleep from 1am to 6am,after reach the sch,fall asleep again from 6.40to7.40am...it's....INCRIDIBLE...however,my eyes really tired...it might be caused my new specs...maybe it doesnt fit me....esp my left eye.i remembered that while i was in form4,i hv to go to see a eyes specialists because the optometrist cant cant the readings of my eyes...the doctor dianogsed that the nerves of my eyes r a bit weak...mayb due to the specs with wrong readings.Initially,i have to go back to the optometrist today for another eye check.however,it rained cats and dogs...the water just like being poured from the heaven to the earth.therefore it had to be postponed to this saturday,after my MUET test.tmr,i think it's another tiring day eventhough it is a public holiday for government sector and the sch...yet,i hv to attend for the replacement tuition classes from 12.30to 4.10pm.classes were cancelled due to the MUET test which is held on the coming saturday... short of time...after MUET day,there is the Malay Mail big walk for the following day....I'm a bit curious.am i capable to finish the 10km distance journey within 1hour n 40min?frankly,i do not really willing to go due to a lot of troublesomes....transportation is a good reason for me...however,it is quite important for us to get a cert,as a representative of our sch to participate.nevertheless,cert is only distributed to those who is able to finish the journey within the qualifying time... as conclusion,it's a tiring week ~HAPPY BIRTHDAY SKY.miss u so much~hv u change ur hp number?i wonder why my msg cant be sent to u.if so,pls leave me your contact.anyway...keep on ur smile and laugh and all the best in ur life~
Written on Sunday, April 22, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
PART1~I’ll be alright!! 一大清早，坦白讲有点不情愿起来，况且昨晚很迟睡...走出客厅，发现妈妈正翻录着别人借给她的信息...一段话吸引了我的注意力...内容大概是提到有些基督徒以为祷告后就能马上看到成效，被圣灵充满，有神迹跟着他...没有感觉到就想放弃...大概是酱吧，实际的内容，我不太记得了...可是吸引了我一些些,感觉有点像我eh...付出代价，坚持到底.... 原本真的不甘愿，很想"ponteng"的我不知怎的赶紧去准备了tim....(-.-!!!!)、赞美敬拜，突然有种感觉“神，我不跟你扯了，不想跟你玩对抗了”口终於开了，当然还有点点...可是，坦白讲，我不太有把握能把这个关系弄好，真的没有把握...不知道会不会有哪天，老毛病会重犯...不太有把握如何维系下去...希望能想今天早上的卡带和今天的信息~忍耐一样，能够坚持到底...不管是跟祢的关系上，还是课业上...很希望找回以前单纯的信心和心态...
实验室，今天有个小风波酱...在另一头埋头做实验的我们当然没什么注意到，故事也是听他们重诉的。话说物理实验的某一组，因为某些原因闹得不愉快。今天是个circuit的实验，当然就要接驳电线，电源...话说其中一位组员(叫K好了)接驳后，发现有点不对劲，於是重组。谁知，男主角出现了...K接什么，男主角就拆什么...K於是说了“你将活泼，不如你来操控整个实验好了”...听说，男主角就开始不爽了...另一位看不过眼的组员又跟男主角说：“你酱不爽，就不要做啦”。据说，这让男主角用电线丢向这位组员...据说，男主角还抓着K，跟他说了一句最近这几天很经典的一句话“YOU CAUSED ME TO DO THAT”，walao有没有很经典？后来？男主角在实验室另一头哭罗。他....看报纸太多？惨！大家有点担心他过后会怎样...惹到他了...
今天，我还听说男主角爱模仿班上同学的小动作。班上有另一位同学有时会作出头撞墙的动作(闹着玩的啦)。可是....他...却会把头撞去柱子...天！！！！！我觉得有点恐怖eh...大家都很怕他会做什么傻事！糟了，他继续这样下去，会闯出什么祸来...多几个月，他就会到邻国了...真的让人担忧...他再这样下去，会很麻烦的..er...god...pls take care of ur son...据说，事件后男主角有向当事人道歉，后来又若无其事的跟大家L熟...可是还是让人不敢恭维...我想，不用我多说，你们早就猜到是谁了...
Written on Thursday, April 19, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
nth much special for today...it's a ordinary day.最近，其实应该是从高二下半年开始，我发现自己对“考试”有一定的厌倦感了...开始，不会为考试而改变心跳机率...不会想初中以前的废寝忘食的打拼...记得初中时期，每每年中大考，历史的问答题...我可以先睡片刻，再调好闹钟，大概在凌晨三点爬起来"作战“...可是后来，历史不再了...听到闹钟响了，会自然再调闹钟，迟点吧...迟些了，又会再调迟些...结果，有次，爸爸都问我，干嘛你的闹钟响那么多次？
there can be miracle when you will believe? who knows wat miracle you can achieve,when you believe somehow u will? IS THERE REALLY MIRACLE THAT WILL HAPPEN? IS THERE ANY MIRACLE FOR ME？
Written on Tuesday, April 17, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
今天如往常般...星期二是我们的badminton day，男生女生都对它情有独中...甚至吸引了老师和助理们，还有校友(离校了的啦)纷纷想加入。当然他们多数是找男生...今天我们女生四人的双打到了另一个境界.照旧是微晓，碧仪(微晓讲是钻石组合wo)VS诗晴，雪荔(微晓又说是皇牌组合wo)。这次，雪荔真是进步神速，让我们的游戏越来越刺激，越来越有水准(水准是我讲罢了啦)。可是今天我们女生真是越打越high!刺激！近球，远球！雪荔开始会追球了！不像以前只站着等球给她打...哈哈！大家的球，比起刚开始的，都明显的凶了很多，速度越来越快，当然不要拿我们跟男生比啦...他们的力度哪里可跟我们相提并论？可是真的进步了！结果大家都要更敏锐，反应要更快！大家似乎都会使计“玩球”了...时前时后...反正今天真的是好玩！原来我们都能像男生们，把球打到脱毛，打烂~下次那粒球已不能用了~可是，以后诗晴走了我们就少一个玩伴，对手了...谁是我们下个训练目标呢？哈哈讲到好像很pro酱，可是还是很期待...I love badminton!!其实真的非笔墨所能形容...好奇？羡慕的话，自己来亲自体验吧...等你们！！哈哈
而我...希望也能很快恢复元气，恢复最佳状态...可是坦白说，最近真的超懒散，懒死！想下...明天要交数学小考(平测)考卷...星期三又有另一个数学平测...the actual MUET,good problem is on next saturday,28april,现在？书都还没碰...加油.....................
后来，在hiro comic n video shop待了一会儿...erm...蛮便宜的...后来，放了书包，找了个风水位，继续逃下去...星马内的uncle john coffee hse...白咖啡+西多司...我的脑里始终空白...或许在转着牛角尖吧...其实，所有的食物对我来说，并没有太大分别...因为我根本不会辨认哪家好吃，除了超难吃的以外...否则，一切对我而言根本就是一样！只是想给自己一些空间，给自己一个新尝试...坦白说，西多司听得多了...可是，今天我才知道那时什么...失败吧？十九岁了~我知道的少之又少...别人在相同年龄经历过的...恐怕很多我都没有经历过...要踏入二字辈了，突然发现自己“老了”可是真的太多太多东西我并没有真正经历过...懂的东西，太少太少...生活上，我什么都不会...我的生活只有“闷”，“呆板”来形容...对於爸爸的不放心，有时真的不知是幸运或不幸！我们实在太依赖，太受保护了...其实我老早就受不了了...我知道他是关心我们的安危，可是关心的太过火了！记得去年tarc开放日，约好了朋友一起参观...谁知他硬要我妈陪我...我推了很久...他的原因是“你还不会搭车”...拜托！！！18岁了！！你几时才肯放手让我去？况且那时只不过是lrt罢了...结果，最后幸好我妈让我去...曾经，爸也不让我单独搭ktm...他的理由还是一样“你太小了”...还要说些东西吓唬我...“你第一次搭，别人很容易看出来的，不自然，怕别人会...”当时我一定极力反抗啊...反问他...那我长大的标准是什么？“等你做工吧！”“天？等我做工第一天才学搭车？那第一次还不是会好像你说得显得不自然吗？”我反问...虽然后来放宽了点，还是有独自搭车的时候...去年开始，可以跟朋友出去一下下，可是每次问他的允许时，他总会皱眉...作出深思，最后才勉强的说出“ok"...坦白说，很扫兴...昨天，原本我想自己学怎样从kl搭巴士到sg wang...结果不用问都知道啦！还要多附一句 “最近那个余人生那里整天有人打抢...”拜托！！！“如果真是要遇上的东西，你怎躲也躲不了...酱所有人永远都不用出门罗"是我回的话
晚上去验眼睛...度数还好没有加太多，近视好像没加，闪光各加25度酱...我的左眼的nerves 还是有点弱，就象上次看医生时酱...我验那只眼睛较麻烦，因为我那只眼睛偶尔会sense不到，可能一时这片镜子可以，后来却又蒙了...分辨不出那个镜子较好，也因为酱...上次搞到要见眼科医生，要滴眼药水，好让nerves强一点，稳定点再验...后来，验光师说等几年酱，会好的...验光师还说，我这现在副眼镜也是做到有点问题的...跟眼科医生验给我的度数也不对，眼睛的focus point也不对...天！！我记得上次的医生有说过”因为你长期配的眼镜不太对，所以才会弄到眼睛的神经变弱“...huh?want like that meh?我的眼睛...haiz...算
Written on Wednesday, April 11, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
太伤心了~一大清早，爸爸拍打我的房门叫我起床，起初还有点火，干嘛？我有调闹钟！！谁知一听到他说，“今天很迟了”，看看手表...oh no!看看手机...显示着"TEST MODE"字样...huh?watz tat?到了学校还是酱...现在还是酱...>< 忘了是昨天还是前天，刚告诉我朋友，“你看啦！我的手机一定很快寿终正寝...短短几个星期内就跌了好几轮...至少都有四轮吧...”谁知...arghh！！！这次该如何开口？如果万一真的弄不好了怎办？yor....kembali to oldern days....use no colour one la...i think...i dun really wan such a hp><这次可麻烦了><。。。bad mood...
den a...wen i change my sim card to my mum's...i found that i've lost part of my contact number....it saved in my old hp automatically ...i think i din change the setting that is to save in my hp b4 this...gosh~>< cry a...
Written on Monday, April 09, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
this is quite a normal day...however,early in the morning....i really cant stand with her attitude today morning...mayb i'm too...and sensitive...chia wei n I actually started to worry bout our speaking part a bit...early in the morning I tried to ask one of ourclassmates who is hving the same fate juz like us...I asked her whether she wanna pratice as a group since four of us is going to join others as a group...but she looks like a bit unwilling.I asked her how is she going to practice?she said she is looking for the another two exactly partners who are from smk chong hwa....she said she wanna practice with em...hello?!!izit so easy as wat u think?U urself maybe convenient for this since you live near to gombak...ur sisiter is studying there too...but wat bout shie wah,who is another partner of u?she juz shifted to her new rental hse....she is still trying her best to fit the new lifestyle...even till today,she is not so used to the new lifestyle...and yet in this pit of time u wan her to take a bus....transfering bus...all the way long to the place near to your hse juz to practice MUET?moreover,r u sure that another two will do the same thing as wat u wish?hmm...mayb i'm too aggresive...aiks...
another shocking news...we,as the bottom two,last two person may hving our speaking part for juz 2 person in a group....mdm chan told us tat it is possible to happen...if so...oh no!!!another annoying n headache issue....wat can we do for the group discussion a?I asked a question the other ans it and after he ans n ask a question n i ans back non stop for 10 minutes?gosh....it should b really headache manner for me....haha....should i b grateful n said that i'm lucky or juz the other way round?
Written on Saturday, April 07, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
今天开始补化学了...真的有点累.下个月，应该还要多补一个PA，没办法... lower six 的graf &parlimen去年在TARC没上过...陀~我真的完全没有时间...为什么得空的时候，要补的科目都没有课？！！！我不是铁打的！！不可能从早上9点不间断的不到4点多...我要吃啊...况且...我的拜六就酱的过吗？？？快疯了...不可能，真的不可能，难道拜三要补晚上的？拜四会有精神上课吗？！！！！FRUSTRATED.....今天搭巴士回家时，真的太累了...睡着了...幸好还会下车...回到家...还未开门，又听见妈妈日又开，夜又开的自制的卡带(她自己的歌声)...真的很烦eh，真的很想开炮！！！拜托~你开不是问题，可是平时晚上可以不要开吗？！开了一整天还不够吗？！客厅从来没有静过的时候...不是开自己的卡带，就是开电视...晚上还听着自己的歌声入睡...烦啊！！！！结果，还是忍着...又睡着了...
Written on Friday, April 06, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
Although I'm a bit tired today,it is a quite peaceful day for me UNTIL WE GOT TO RECIEVE OUR MUET SLIP...At first,we do not know about anything...but later....my sky is full with black clouds...this is the story: we were told by our teacher that our location for MUET exam is in SMK Chong Hwa,Gombak as previous year...for the speaking part,we r sitting for it on 14Mei2007.we were seperated into two sections...that means sum of us r going to attend the test on the 1st and sum of us is going to sit for the 2nd section...SUDDENLY...there's a voice from a corner..."teacher,y r we who is from the same group get the different section?"HUH?!!!all of us got into silent.....OH NO!!!!R we going to....that wat in our mind....I think...it was the nightmare...later,teacher asked em...."ok,how many of u were in the same group but then in different section?pls raise ur hand"....after counting,there r a group of em where two members r in the 8.00am section and another on the 11.00am section....gosh...all of us hv known wat will happen to us next...we got a big shocked...the whole class started to discuss bout this matter....den our teacher said"erm,last time,the smk chong hwa used to put our sch students name in front of their students name....that means for the previous years,our sch index number is earlier than those who studied in smk chong hwa...but this year,i think they put their students' name first...."GOSH!!!! *for those who still dunno wat is happening,let me explain here....there is a speaking part in MUET.for this task,4 candidates will be formed in a group.there r two parts for the speaking,whicj=h is part , a individual part.we will recieve our question on that particular day.usually it asked for suggestion/opinion/solution.for the individual part,a suggest/opinion is given to u.u muz think of the points based on the title.there r only 2minutes time for u to think of the points....after 2 minutes,u are required to give your points n elaboration in 2 minutes time individually.after 4 candidates has completed their task respectively...they r given another to minutes to discuss among themselves....after that,10 minutes will b given for the group disscussion.each candidate muz voice out their opinion...they can agree/disagree/giving reasons...etc...at last they muz come out with a conclusion on the topic after the discussion. *there r 20 of us in the class...so initially,we think that we r safe n will not be seperated....we might b in the same group with high possibiliity.however,looks like our dream had been crashed...after knowing this situation....that means now.....the first two candidates will join the other candidates from different sch and the last two candidates will hv the same fate too....and "luckily"...I am one of the last two candidates in our class since my surname starts with an "W"....gosh....initially,it is not a problem for me....but later....><....my heart sink to the bottom of the sea...I am the candidate C in my practice wic i think it is the safer place....but now,I had become the candidate A,the 1st person to start...I'm going to cry out loud!!!!AAA!!!y like that?I'm afraid for my individual part now!!!ok,if i weren't the 1st person to start,I will have a bit more time to think bout my point...and i might able to "steal"sum ideas from them who had speak out their points...or mayb in their speaking in the individual part,they will remind me bout sth that i had missed out....but then,looks like it had bcome sth impossible for me....to form a group with other ppl from different sch shudn't b a big problem for me....I'm not too worry bout my group discussion that much too...but....the individual part really ....gosh.... now,i only hope that my choice will b the most easiest point to elaborate...that's wat i hope for now....I hope my dream will cum true
*by the time my fren n I turned over....a fren of us started shedding tears...hey!!!gosh...wat r u doin?aiks...although it seems to b a cruel reality ....it doesnt come to the point that we need to cry...izit?v r facing the same situation too....futhermore,it had bcome a reality wic will not ever change...it is juz waste of energy to cry for it....haiz...by the time...she left the sch...her tears still shedding w/o fail...honestly...a bit cant stand with this type of attitude...but really pity of her...eyes got swollen...hope that u'll raise up n face the reality bravely ,fren...all the best to u n me n everyone
23.17 after looking at those photo....suddenly upset...emotional creature...feel like alone n lonely....theres a gap day by day btw me n my old frens in 2ndary last time...i felt that the gap is clearer n clearer...deeper n deeper...sumtimes i'm not with em in their meeting....firstly may b it's coz by my scheldule in sch....2ndly may b is caused by usually i'm not able to attend due to i cant get d permission from my father....><...that was not the thing i wan...how i wish i cud go out like with my frens...my wish since form 1...but year after year....dissappointment followed me...it juz bcum impossible for me.....later....i started to bcum not willing to fight for the permission...i think i was "numb" since i'm so used to the ans"NO"... sumtimes i really irritated...dunno wat to do....i knew that he cares for us a lot....but sumtimes i really cant stand w his ways....LONELY.....I'm....i've nobody.....day by day....really feeling lonely...who shalli talk to?i had never ever share my feelings to a fren(usually)....to my fren in sch....sorry coz sum part of it....u may not able to help me....so i din tell....but i'm sumone who used to "hide" myself.....sumtimes even myself personally ,i dunno watz happening....for u who r looking at me...both frens n relative...i really nid sum commemnts....i dun really understand myself....but i really hope that u all will give me sum commemnt and act as my mirror to reflect myself to me....mayb ur words might not correct fully...but at least i hv sum reference.....how i hope so....but den again....it is hard....for everywhere that i go...i'm in a rush...not much time for me to talk....sumtimes...i keep silence n not to talk coz i reall dunno what to talk...wat topic to start....actually to keep quiet is sumthing very hard....how i wish the ffrens around me wil start a topic...haiz....被动is that bad...u might as me....y din i poured out everything deep in my heart?sumtimes...wen i got the "feeling"....everyone seems like very busy...or wen everyone looks happy...u wan me to showed the face of ....?dunno wat to do....den i'm that kind of used to逃避... persueing myself....pretend like nth is happening.... wen it burst out....actually everthing was not solved...............h..a..i...z...
Written on Monday, April 02, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
recently really moody....too lazy during my weekend...except go for tuition on saturday i had done nth...i realise that i really in a rush if i really wan2 do well in stpm....actually there r lots of things wic i can do...exercise for every chapter la....pa n muet looking for the topics la....actually there r really endless job if i really put my effort....however,i cant look for my heart at home....i could hardly take a book n read it seriously....all i can do is juz look at s few sentences and then close the book...i'm the kind of easily addicted by the surroundings....i muz hv a silent place to read....that wud truely b my weakness... but den in sch....i noe wat i shud do.....therefore if i had time i'll juz bring my book to library....eventhough i still cant really realyy read it concentratedly....however,at least i can hv a quiet place to study...better than none.....but....wat i wanna say is....my dear fren....i'm happy that u treat me as a fren even v only got to noe each another at the beginning of the year...really....but den....i was really easily affected...this is the only chance for me to study seriously><...otou sumtimes u try to tell me bout the news on that day....sumtimes u can even xplain sth that i dun understand to me....i really appreciate...but den i feel a bit unease n might lost my concentration again....although i shall b trained to study,not affected by the surrounding...but now i'm really weak n i'm not able to face it....4give me....plz giv me a place to study personaly...>< i'm still w...e...a...k..... anyone can help me? i feel like dry n dying.... how i wish i can juz lay there n not move for a week...
Written on Sunday, April 01, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
it's april fool today...i recieved a special msg state that"cal me urgently.A bad news abt u"...haha~luckily I'm sumone who is very careful n intelligent.....there is "treasure"behind....wakaka wic states that"r u shocked?4ward 2ur frens n c hw many 2pid dun read the msg fully"...wakaka...i dunwan my hp to b爆机so i only send to 4ppl....2sec after my I sent....a call is there....oh gosh....i din mean to fool u.....actually i'm juz trying to send sth funny(funny msg)to u as wat we agree to do so b4....haha
i try to stop it today...i really tired of it...cant do it well n yet as wat i hv expected it wasnt a smooth procedure...i hv to look4 another person in charge....haiz....y izit so difficult to stop sth?gosh.....can let me go ma? y everyone seems to noe that what's my situation now?asking me how am i goin on...if i really noe n noe wat to do....i hv cum out since long time ago....can i stop????let me go....l...e...t...m...e...g...o...
Written on Sunday, April 01, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
easter day cell group.....it's unexpectedly this time my brother easily promised me to attend....and another unexpectedly,my father permitted too even when my mum said "this year is ur pmr n uec year o",my father said "it's not evrything to hv test....study is 4 knowledge,not for tests".we played games n had movie...the movie actually my mum had bought it...and i the "explorer"had finished it long time ago...but it's gud too....my bro can hv this chance to watch it...however,he's still VERY VERY VERY shy...that he din even giv any responds wen karen jie n kevin go or other ppl ask him sum question....lol...wat to do?although the film doesnt really gud....n the actors' act r not so natural too.....but den the msg is still there....v still touched by it,....however i think everyone is shy....including me....i dare not to cry in front of so many ppl....wahaha....my bro still hv not much respond till the end of the cellgroup...mayb he's really too shy...he's sumone who cares a lot on how others looking at him...he's very shy too....but i believe he recieve sth....i think so n i hope so
when we reach ktm...gosh!!!it was late!!!the ticket counter was closed as wat i've expected....we nid to buy ticket from the machine....however....nite mare cum....one of the machines were totally not functioning while the other one ONLY RECIEVE COINS....the paper money couldnt b used since it was stucked i think.....oh no.....3 ppl....wic costs rm7.50....how can i get so many coins?ther wasnt any workers left....all the passanger were lack of syiling too....at last i've to call 4 help....i called kim hong who lived near there....she was not at home but she informed her bro to look 4 syiling for us....finally we got the coins.....really thankful....thx kim hong n ur bro for the help...in my mind,if we really couldnt find any coins,i've decided to take the ktm w/o ticket....mayb when we reach there only we pay....but then gratefully,we got the coins from kim hong's bro....thx a lot....but then the ktm timing is truely poor....at last we reach sentul at 1200am.....haiz....
sorry i didnt mean to do that...but i dun even hv a proper relationship with God....i dun even able to find my heart back now....how am i qualified to go 4 the "training"?as wat i said...let me sink to the bottom ba....mayb i'll rise up sumday if i hv the chance n is permitted....pls giv me sumtime....i afraid that ....haha...not worthy la....i didnt mean to hurt anyone.....didnt mean to make anyone of u worry bout me....sorry....giv me sumtime ba.....
人生目标是什么？WATZ D PURPOSE FOR ME TO STAY?我很想知道却始终至今都找不到。
是否以前压抑太多？现在一次过发傻？哈哈...我也想知道...can i hv a total change?I need it!!! i want a different lifestyle....god..........................I'm really tired.....can i hv a break?
Written on Wednesday, March 28, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
this should be the post b4 "watz happenning?dying",posted in friendster blog too,dated 28march:
suddenly feel that i really hv to work hard...now i hv to said that....i'm a bit stress when in class now....y?well,many things that i've learn b4 had totally deleted from my mind....futhermore,there r sth that i missed since i do not take UEC...therefore sum of the concepts i missed...futhermore,the class is getting noisier n noisier....sumtimes i really wanna shout out...but then i endure....take a breath n assumed that the surrounding is quiet....sum of em r goin to leave later....however,those who is confirmed to stay play along too...frankly,if our class continue to behave the same manner for 1 or 2 months more.....we will surely die...tuition....i'm thinking of it now....but then the timetable ua too pack....most of the day....it ends at 4~5sth...although it starts late,but all those tuition classes dun begins early at the morning....i think if iwere to attend the class....for sure...very very very busy... i think i really under stress a bit ady....
Written on Wednesday, March 28, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
天啊~我越来越对我们的教育政策不敢恭维了...对於这种填鸭式，分数主义的制度越来越反感...甚至开始抗拒了...天天日日夜夜都只有书堆...要把个个训练成呆板的书虫...成绩有那样重要吗？所有考试都满分就能表现一个人的实力吗？很可怕...很想逃离...松开这样的束缚...我不想要酱的生活...可是，能做些什么？！很想抛开一切...真的很想...很想甩开一切...只是这些关任我们多不愿意...始终得硬着头皮撑下去...怎办？！真的很矛盾...很想放开一切“远走高飞”...可是又不行...没有办法...天！！我要怎样再度把我的情绪调回来？已经三月了...再不行就糟了...各位有何高见可以打救下我？这种想放不能放的感觉不好受><.....a....I'm tired with all of these....
Written on Monday, March 26, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
this is the design for our class T-shirt which will be used up for Sports Days this year...It was created by me o^^...can't believe it can pops up at last minutes...It's a rush work but I satisfy with it.however,the problems cums...today,i got to know that it was very expensive since we only hv 20+ ppl to buy it(our classmates only consist of that number)...if we can't found out any way,I might need to make a bit changes on it....although it is juz a SMALL part,i know that it will take a lot of my time n strength...I really hope that I wont have to take the trouble to change it again.....
Written on Wednesday, March 21, 2007 by peacefreezer-pik yee
finally....my driving lesson had come to the end...haiz....32hours....stupid la...kaka~i shud learn it later since b4 that i only learn it once a week....anyway...all had come to the end.... the rain falled since yesterday nite till bout 9sth today....luckily it stopped...my number was 83hijau....my test is around 11sth....i saw drivers passed and failed....most of emwho failed drove the golden coloured car....esp number 06....i can said that omos 4~5out of10 who drove that car failed to "daki bukit"....I prayed...dun let me get those cars....luckily mine was white...at first I made mistake...yee?why the car cant move n sounded loudly?no gua?it's a damp car?even one of the staff came to me....HAHAHA~guess wat...i forgot the handbrake...wakaka~but then,i was not so familiar with the car since its metre is one my left hand side...it's hard for me to read the metre....ok...it's my turn...yess...peace is in me....all in my mind was juz...ok...even cant make it one the first time...i had another chance....however....DUN OVER THE HILL!!!if not...i mampus ady...wakaka~luckily....ngam ngam....hiu....so lucky...I got it in one try....my confidence increase....yess...i made it....all of em juz in one try....
on the road....i was judged by a malay guy...i checked everything...but....oh gosh...i cant release the brake....it was too...i used all my strength....then...the guy ...made it for me....fiu....so paise...my journey went on...but then the car was a little bit faster than the car that i drove b4 eventhough the speed was omos d same...the road junction...my most nervous part...luckily i made it again....but still...i felt that it was a bit fast....anyway....fiu....when i reached the traffic light,it was red...i think that fellow tested me...he said..."ok,jalan...jalan lah"...but it was red...i dun bother him...haha~was he trying to tested me?i dunno lo...kaka~my 2nd barrier...when i turned into the another junction..a big truck was in front of me with slow speed...i din noe whether it was a right act a not...i juz cut it...wa shuang...haha~the juge din say anything...consider right gua...wakaka~however...when i got back(on the back journey)...omos the door of the pusat(the place we took parking etc exam...)...when i omos reached the hump...a van stopped...juz in front of the hump...i was unable to slow down the car that fast....i hv to cut again...but then....ishhh...i got to the lane bside ady><...it deduct my mark again....saying that"pandu di selekoh tdk ikut lorog yg betul"....><
however....thanks God...i passed with 18 marks...wakaka~the guy was a bit rude actually...haiz...dun bother la....passed ady....later...when i read my results...only i found that...eh?got one column wic asked us to try the wiper n signal...at that moment only i realised....eh?yaho.....ishhh...i din do that...but that fellow approvd me>p<...haha~but even if he deduct my marks for that...still...i passed...yippie!!but den...i really spent a lot of money ady><....n YESS i apssed...but i hv no car to drive now><....when will it be?hope it come soon^^kaka
but then the period of waiting was very very long...the day was hot....my head became ache after waiting for so long in that environment wic it stuffy...it made me feel like i had been standing under the sun for the whole day long....anyway...juz thanks god for everything...n He din gave me up...thx
